Four Kinds of Rain

  ALSO BY ROBERT WARD

  Shedding Skin

  Cattle Annie and Little Britches

  Red Baker

  The Cactus Garden

  The King of Cards

  Grace

  FOUR KINDS OF RAIN

  ROBERT WARD

  a division of F+W Media, Inc.

  FOR JEFFREY AND GAYLE LEWIS

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  Thanks to John Lansing; Sascha Blair; Gwenda Blair; John Manciewicz; Dan Pyne; the late Bill Sackheim; Jo Anne Sackheim; the wonderful artist Susan Hall; Baltimore Police Detective Matt Bauler; my best pals in Baltimore, Jed and Julia Dietz; Mary Jo Gordon; Detective Nick Giangrosso; Dr. Larry Horowitz; Chuck Lorre; Lee Lankford; Dr. Bob Huizenga; Mike and Toni Andreen; Bob Asahina and his wife, Linda Ashour; Pat McGuire; Nina Marino; Rick Kaplan; David Milch; Lukas Ortiz; Gary Phillips; Michael Schur; Susan Steiner; Wendy Martin; Dr. Jeff Schwartz; Lenny Levitski; Brent Staples; Jeff Weber; and Robert Wallace. Special thanks to my wife, Celeste Wesson, who read every draft; my son, Robbie, who I kicked around the ending with time and time again; Dr. Brent Walta; R. D. Laing; Sol Yurick, who introduced me to radical psychotherapy many years ago; and the great Michael Connelly, who read the book and got it to my brilliant and charming agent, Philip Spitzer. Phil, in turn, sent the book to the right man, Michael Homier, at St. Martin’s, who is not only a terrific editor but now a good friend. Love to all of you.

  CONTENTS

  PART I: RAIN AND SNOW

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  PART II: RAIN OF STONE

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  PART III: RAIN OF LIGHT

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  PART IV: RAIN OF BLOOD

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Chapter Twenty-Four

  Chapter Twenty-Five

  Chapter Twenty-Six

  Chapter Twenty-Seven

  Chapter Twenty-Eight

  Chapter Twenty-Nine

  Chapter Thirty

  Also Available

  Copyright

  PART I

  RAIN AND SNOW

  CHAPTER ONE

  Even after three vodkas and an Ambien, it had taken Bob Wells two hours to fall asleep. Now he lay in his bed dreaming that he was running through a maze of dark city streets, while sharp little stilettos of ice stuck in his chest. Somewhere ahead of him in the gathering dark, a voice screamed, “Terrorists. Terrorists … they’re coming! The terrorists!” He knew that panicky voice so well, knew it nearly as well as he knew his own. He turned a dream corner and saw the screamer lying there, near a battered old phone booth, his sore-covered head hanging in the gutter.

  Bob Wells woke up with a start. There it was again. The panic dream of ice rain. A lethal injection that fell from the night sky, accompanied by a high-pitched scream, the same scream he could hear for real now, somewhere out there on the wet city streets.

  He got out of bed, went to his bedroom window, and with some effort pushed it open. The cold wind and sleet blew in from the harbor. Bob stuck his head out into the night and looked down the far end of Aliceanna Street. The homeless guy was there, just as he’d been the night before, the guy everybody called 911, lying in the gutter, right next to the battered and windowless telephone booth. Loaded on rotgut and crack, he held his wine bottle in the air and screamed: “Here they come! The terrorists! They’re in the air! They’re here! Terrorists! Terrorists!”

  Bob listened to 911 rave, his hysterical voice cutting through his rapidly beating heart. Finally, he shut the window, sighed, took off his sweat-soaked pajama top, quickly threw on his old wool crewneck sweater, and reached for his black Levi’s.

  Bob buttoned his old navy pea jacket against the sleet as he headed down the slippery street. He was ten feet away when the terrified, wide-eyed, filthy man looked up at him.

  “I know you,” he said. “The fucking terrorist.”

  “Nah, Nine,” Bob said. “No terrorists, man. It’s just me. Bob.”

  The drunken, panicked wreck looked at him through rheumy eyes.

  “Dr. Bobby?” he said. “Dr. Bobby, that you?”

  “Yeah,” Bob said. “That’s me. What’s up, Nine?”

  “They’re coming,” 911 whispered. “They’re coming. I heard it from my people.”

  “Right,” Bob said. “So, if they are coming, maybe the smart thing to do would be to get off the street?”

  911 bit his scabby lower lip and looked at Bob in a cagey way.

  “So you might think,” he said. “But then again, maybe that’s exactly what they want me to do. After I get to the shelter, boom, the death strike hits there.”

  “I don’t think so,” Bob said, moving even closer. “You know why?”

  “Why?”

  “ ‘Cause I talked to your people just a few minutes ago and they told me that tonight is just a street action. Anybody in the shelter is safe, Nine. Okay?”

  911 looked frantically around like a frightened gerbil.

  “Also it’s cold and wet out here,” Bob said, looking up at the sky. “You could get real sick and then you’d be playing right into their hands.”

  From beneath the street grime, 911 assumed a thoughtful stare.

  “You’re right,” he said. “They would just love that, bro.”

  “Of course they would,” Bob said. “Hey, the thing is, I gotta go to St. Mary’s shelter right down on Broadway, so maybe you’d like to keep me company, huh?”

  “Like riding shotgun on the stagecoach to Dodge,” 911 said.

  “Just like that,” Bob said.

  “Maybe we should go now, before they come,” 911 said. Like he’d just thought of it. Like he was taking care of Bob.

  “Let’s do it,” Bob said.

  As 911 tried to unfold his bones from the street, Bob gently took his arm, a mistake he wouldn’t have made earlier in the night, when he was less wasted.

  911 pulled away quickly and kicked Bob squarely in the balls. Stunned, Bob went down on his knees, groaning and holding his crotch, as the homeless man scuttled away.

  “Oh no, man. You can’t fool me,” 911 screamed. “You almost had me, dude, but I saw through you! You fucking terrorist son of a bitch!”

  Bob fell over on his side as the pain shot through his stomach and lodged somewhere near his Adam’s apple. He lay there and it occurred to him, for maybe the hundredth time that day, that he seriously needed out of this shit. Up, up, and away, like forever, for good. No more, baby. No more friend of the friendless. No more poor folks. No more 911s.

  As the burning pain subsided, Bob Wells entertained a small, almost funny thought. If any of his neighbors looked out their windows just now, they’d see him there and think, Look at the poor, homeless son of a bitch out in this shit. Pathetic.

  And they’d be right, Bob thought, dead right. Because this was it. This was his life. The grand and once near-glorious Bob Wells was lying in the street after being kicked in the balls by a madman. Not only that, but the madman was one of his own patients, a wretch he’d helped get off the streets time and time again.

  Cold winter sleet raining down on his face, Bob began to laugh. It was perfect really, just fucking perfect. Slowly and
with great delicacy, Bob picked himself up and limped up the dark wet street toward home.

  CHAPTER TWO

  During this period, the last “normal” phase of his career, Bob’s life had taken on a ghoulish regularity. When he was done with the last patient of the day in his dying psychology practice, he’d come up from his knotty pine basement office, make sure his little row house was locked (he’d been robbed five times in the last two years), and trudge on down the street to American Joe’s bar. Here he would meet his old pal, the semiretired labor reporter Dave McClane for happy hour and the two old cronies would belt back their well drinks. Dave drank something foul called Misty Isle scotch and Bob Popov vodka, which tasted, he suspected, not unlike Sterno. Despite their vows to “tone the drinking down,” and get into a “health bag for the new year,” more often than not one drink would turn into two and two into four. By six o’ clock, they would both be whacked and as the darkness settled like blue ink over downtown Baltimore, the boozy glow of the afternoon would shade into a sour feeling of discontent. The approaching night held little excitement for two middle-aged, divorced men and that lack of promise often lurched Bob Wells into a tailspin of melancholy.

  “Twenty-two years of marriage to Meredith and it’s all she wrote,” he said to Dave, as he rocked back on his heels, standing at the bar. “I spend all my time assessing other people, watching them, learning about them so they can deal with their hang-ups and yet I never saw it coming.”

  Big Dave McClane shook his head and grabbed a handful of Spanish peanuts from the plastic dish that Gus Smetana, the bartender and proprietor, had just set in front of them.

  “But that’s the way, huh, Bobby?” Dave said. “Isn’t the husband always the last one to know?”

  “I guess so,” Bob said, slightly irritated that Dave answered his own lame self-pity with an even lamer cliché.

  “Of course, Darlene left me, too,” Dave said, snapping up another handful of the foul peanuts. “But that was a long time ago. And it wasn’t for somebody else.”

  “Thanks for reminding me, bud,” Bob said bitterly.

  Dave looked a little hurt.

  “Come on, Bobby,” he said. “You know I didn’t mean it that way. Personally, I can’t understand why she would ever leave you for Rudy fucking Runyon. The guy’s a total asshole.”

  “Yeah, but a rich asshole,” Bob said. “Saw the happy couple just the other day.”

  “Where?” Dave said, running his big hand through his graying and disheveled hair.

  “Over at Hopkins Hospital,” Bob said. “They had a seminar on bipolar disorder. Just as I’m about to go inside, I see this huge black limo drive up. Man, it’s about a hundred feet long. The driver parks and opens the back door and out pops Dr. Rudy and the lovely Meredith.”

  “Brought the limo, huh? Heard his publisher pays for it,” Dave said.

  “ ‘Ask Dr. Rudy,’ “ Bob said, in a voice that mimicked the announcer’s on Rudy’s nationally syndicated radio show.

  “‘Whether it’s love or loss, Dr. Rudy has the answers,’“ Dave said. “Gotta hand it to him, though, the guy’s done all right for himself.”

  Smetana came over and showed off his gleaming new dentures.

  “Hey, lads,” he said. “Hate to break up this high-toned conversation, but it’s last call for happy hour.”

  “And what a happy hour it’s been,” Dave said. “You want a last drink, Bobby?”

  “Why the hell not?” Bob said, smiling with what he hoped would look like his devil-may-care grin.

  “The thing is,” Dave said, “you gotta be a personality. You could write a book, Bobby, all you been through. The activist shrink, man.”

  Bob laughed, as he picked up his vodka and ice.

  “Yeah, that would sell maybe ten copies.”

  “Whatever,” Dave said. “You’re still a hero to me, Bob-a-ril,” Dave said, putting his big arm around Bob’s shoulders. “All you done for people down here. You stuck with your youthful dreams, baby, helping the people who needed it most, and that means a hell of a lot. You never sold out, and not too many guys can say that.”

  “Yeah, well, maybe I should have,” Bob said. “‘Cause this poverty shit is getting old, right?”

  “Ah, you don’t mean it, Bob. It’s not in you. You’re a working-class hero.”

  Dave opened his arms and gave Bob a drunken hug. Bob felt himself blush. Jesus, Dave could get sentimental when he was loaded. But what the hell, now that all his other friends had run for the burbs, and Meredith had cashed in with Rudy, what it came down to was Dave McClane was his best friend. He managed to give Dave an embarrassed little hug back.

  “Well, I gotta get back, Dave-o,” Bob said.

  “Sure you don’t want to take a run down to the Lodge?” Dave said. “Heard there’s going to be a little birthday party tonight for Lou Anne.”

  “Ah, the fair Lou Anne Johnson,” Bob said. “You make your move on that girl yet?”

  Now it was Dave’s turn to blush. He’d had a crush on the buxom waitress at the local artists’ bar, the Lodge, for over three months, but was too shy to tell her.

  “Not yet,” Dave said. “You think she’s a little young for me?”

  “Young?” Bob said. “She’s almost forty. Damn cute, too. You ought to tell her you’re crazy about her before some other guy gets there.”

  “Well, maybe I will,” Dave said. “What about you, Bob? When are you gonna find a new woman?”

  “Never,” Bob said, moving to the door. “I’m all done with that.”

  In his mind’s eye he suddenly had an image of Dave and Meredith, Rudy and himself … all of them young, marching in the streets to fight city hall from building the beltway through Fells Point. Young, angry, dangerous … friends and lovers. He shook his head and the image floated away. There was a time when he liked to recall his romantic radical youth, but now it was too painful to remember.

  “I’ll see you at the Lodge Thursday night, bud,” Bob said, as he got to the door and looked out into the icy street.

  “Long live the Rockaholics,” Dave said.

  That was the name of Bob’s oldies band. The Lodge was their one steady gig and Dave was their number one fan. But then he had always been Bob’s number one fan, ever since they were kids and Dave had been a roadie for Bob’s old band, the Nightcats.

  “Take care, bro,” Bob said.

  “You too, bro,” Dave said.

  Bob stumbled, half-crocked, out into the freezing night. He felt warmth and a brotherly tug toward Dave, but he felt something else, too. Something like contempt. After all, any man who could be his fan … well, that made him lower than Bob himself on the food chain. And since Bob felt like a failure and a sack of shit, what then did that make Dave?

  As he walked past the narrow row houses toward his own place on Aliceanna Street, Bob was suddenly overwhelmed with a feeling of dread. This was it, truly all there was. After all the sound and fury of his activist youth, fighting city hall, giving his life—his whole fucking life—for some ideal of equality, some dim utopian fantasy, this was what it had come down to. A few patients, barely enough money to scrape by, and crummy well drinks with Dave. Meanwhile, all his other old pals, the once-radical shrink gang, lived in the burbs and watched their kids grow, go to college, and prosper. Jesus, some of his old college friends were already grandparents. And most of them were multimillionaires.

  Christ, Bob thought, he’d been as brilliant as any of them. But somehow, for all his youthful brains and passion, he’d missed the boat. Not that he was all that old; he was still in his early fifties. Which meant he was just old enough to know that he had used up his store of luck, or to put it like the old Marxist he once was, his capital was spent, the workers of the world had never revolted, and, face it, his life as a useful member of society, even as marginal as it had been for the past ten years, was now kaput, finished, ancient history.

  In the past month, Bob’s last grant from Johns Hopkins H
ospital had dried up. Named after his old mentor and radical psych teacher, the Roger E. Director Grant had been renewable yearly, and when things were tight it had always pulled him through. But this year the board had denied Bob’s request and when he’d petitioned them they’d written him a fucking e-mail, saying that “the grant was for groundbreaking new work in the field of psychology,” and that “a person as well-established” as Bob couldn’t be “eligible for it in the new millennium.”

  Bob didn’t have to be a CIA decode specialist to know what that really meant: “You’re an old washed-up hack and if you’re not rich and famous by now, it’s not our job to fund your worthless fucking practice.”

  God help him … he didn’t know what he was going to do next. If only he’d sold out years ago, taken a job as a corporate shrink … back when he had heat on his career. The thought of being broke, going into his dotage eating at Denny’s, getting the early bird special with the old-age pensioners. Wearing a spit-mottled cardigan sweater, wandering around the pier at Fells Point, staring through the restaurant windows at happy, successful people who were eating oysters and crab cakes.

  Oh Jesus, such thoughts made him panic. It was like someone had sent electricity through his body. Juiced him up … with a zap of fear.

  It hadn’t always been this way, of course.

  No, it hadn’t been so bad when Meredith was still around. But living alone, there were some nights he thought about, really thought about, downing a whole bottle of Ambien and checking out for good. Leave the Gandhi bit for some young sucker with a need to save this sad, violent world.

  Bob walked on, feeling a pain in his right knee, an old lacrosse injury from his days at Hopkins. Lacrosse. Running all day in scrimmages and then after a killer practice doing another two miles on the track. Was it possible that he had ever been that young? Or was that merely a dream?

  A dream like his marriage …

  In spite of what he’d said to Dave, about how he’d been blind-sided by Meredith’s defection, the truth was he’d seen it coming. It was as much his own fault as Rudy’s (the son of a bitch). If he hadn’t gotten into the goddamned poker games with Ray Wade, fat Lenny Bloom the social worker, and their buddies. If he hadn’t lost his life savings in his early middle-aged “swinging guy” period. It had all seemed so innocent when they started. Just a few old friends getting together once a week for a low-stakes game. But disastrously for Bob, his little hobby soon blossomed into a full-bore gambling addiction. The excitement of the games gave him a rush, like the wild old days, fighting the cops. And for a while, maybe six months, he’d been on a tear, coming home with his old corduroys stuffed with bills. He’d become so cocky that he’d talked Ray Wade into getting him into “bigger games,” a favor slick Ray was only too happy to grant. After all, Bob was a cardsharp’s dream. He was a bold and reckless player. No matter what lousy cards he held in his hand, he always managed to convince himself that the next one he drew would be the one that filled an inside straight. When these moments of “inspiration” came, it was almost as though he heard a voice from, well, not God exactly, Bob didn’t believe in God, but from a higher power of some kind. (Was it the same higher power that had convinced him he had to live a noncompromising life as an urban saint? Probably.) Thus “inspired,” Bob would suddenly throw caution and common sense to the wind. He raised the stakes and stayed in, until the bloody end. It was a huge rush to play cards that way, brave, dangerous. Poker made him feel alive, gutsy, and, most of all, young.